a poetry for you

anyone willinq to cheer me up .
hahahah , here's somethinq i wanna told ya .

i had a wonderful girlfriends . she always make me smile .
althouqh sumtimes she did make me anqry . but she make my day .
i did not once hate her . cause she is sooo special to me .
i became to like her more and more each day .
i could still smell her like a new born baby .
ohhh baby .. no other one can replace you .
all i wanted to say is i'm willinq to do anythinq as lonq , as you're always mine .
be it , make-inq a tear drop or donatinq a heart for you to survive . jyeah , i know it kinda merepek .
but hope it does . cause as lonq , i'm alive . i'm thinkinq that i will be facinq alot of trouble .

hahahah , jyeah so no one will dare be happie and smile aqain w/o me livinq in the world <3

what a bad day

today , hmmm coolinq down .
after prayinq zuhur . then didnt disturb anyone .
wanted to watch tv , but think back . i dun nid la . cause qot that druq addict fucker .
i was at the bed room , open nasheed . while he opened loudly , sonqs usinq the speaker . i went out . to eat openinq surah yasin . then he increase the volume and i was like hackcare .
then until asar , i told my mum . that i didnt want to fight . but how am i qoinq to pray , with this loud sonqs . my mum kept quiet not wantinq to do anythinq . so i told my mum , i will handle this matter my own . be it i kena arrested or what . because this is not his house alone .
so i went to my bedroom . then i went out to him nicely .
to lower the volume , 1st he did do it .(like a doqqie)
then when i went in back the room , he increased the volume back .
so , i come out not knowinq what else to do .
asked him , because he kept on tellinq everyone . he was a still in tjr .
like he make stories of me , joininq omeqa . but i didnt .
with that , i kena whack w/o a reason .
so i gave him a flyinq kick to his face(left) . he was qoinq to cryinq .
fuck the tjr people lahh . then called police .
what the hell ?? complain more to the police .
i was there laughinq in my heart , and i did told the police . i am not scared of you all . i am prayinq .
so be it human , i am most scared of ALLAH . i kept on repeatinq like mad . cause , they think they can threaten me . i would die for ALLAH , not for them .
then i laugh . when they wanted to qo . i shout back what , see you in court and if anythinq happened to me . i will report to you . and i will find you back !

fun urh me . but i will still love my baby boo (aylaa)
rememberinq my meimei : lili bonch and those who called me uncle Aan .
i will treasure you and i will promised not to make anymore kes . if i went in , do remember me and see me or post a letter to me okae ?

the 3rd time at polyclinic

hahahah , went to polyclinic .
after sembahyanq subuh . istiqfar banyak-banyak ..
until 7am . then bath all , like normal then lepak jap lahh ..
cause wanted to go poly at 8am . i didnt ate for breakfast cause im scared that my blood will qo out .
so i eat a piece of bread . then quickly qo out  .. went to bustop near my house .
 waited for 5min . then a small bus came . full pack with people .
another 10 min came . a double deck came , full of people .
another 5 min came , a small bus . full of people .
another 10 min came , small bus , full of people .
another 5 min came . smalll bus . full of people .
then gave up . the 6th bus came , i board it  cause , i was like damn late already .
then as i board . hafway . came a small bus too behind my bus .
it was soo not crowded . you know whye my i said that .. earlier on . full of people ?
the full of people is the stupid banqladesh .
luckily , i didnt smack his face . stupid ass !
as the bus was qoinq , near a factory . alot of passenqer drop off . at the workplace .
me , in my mind was like . relieved . cause i qot to be seated . as i was tired too ..
hahahah , stupid banqla .
reached polyclinic . at around 9+ . feel like i w as qoinq to work another 40min . hahaha , see the workplace didnt opened . msq my boss . cause i had quitted my job . to take my salary . that time , i was at hospital(trick hym) . then i had to rest aqain . last mon , i took it at 2pm . he gave me $28 . fuck hym , luckily . i didnt scold hym back . he gave me $50 . i wanted to place a note at his shop O$P$ .. hahah was onie jokinq la . cause he supposed to give me $64 ? but its okae la . next time can . if i still remembered ! opps , i was supposed to talk about my polyclinic . stupid boss ,
at the polyclinic . after reqisterinq . my num , was damn fast . they called me . i approached them . and said qood morninq . i had to take a blood test again .
then they said okae . leave me alone then i went to counter 54 . wanted to register . then the same kakak that time who said , whye didnt give salam . then i said , hello ! i was like a zombie . she was shocked .. hahah cool me . and everyone looked at me .. huhu , famous mahh . saw diff people at there . taken my blood test now at right hand near to my finqer . the doc was malay . she gave me a asalamualaikum , i responded back . and said that . she asked me , is it the hosptl who asked you to come take blood . i sadi 'NO'.. after takinq my blood test , i was to approach doc . sat there quietly showinq off my right hand . got blood what .. hahah , then a stupid old uncle . sat beside me . he saw so smelly . like 'bau babi' .. ewww .. i covered my mouth . then played my hp game 'guitar rock-on' . then my num was called . the same room 39 . like that time , the doc said to me . then my white blood cell was okae . hahaha .. went out to take my medicine and pay . go home , took 154 to taman juronq . 399 . caused got job interview , had called them . before 1pm . i come . then after interview , went to the nearest mosque , 'asyakirin'.. then went home . throwinq paper that i ate at the bustop yungkuanq .block 6

the day at polyclinic 2nd times

hey droppinq by to continue my stories at clementi polyclinic .
ahahahah .. this is the second time , went to polyclinic ..
hahahahaha .. it was the sickness that i couldnt take it anymore . had to take my blood and urine test . fuck , so damn paisey sia . cause im the only kid . who had to do this ? the rest is all old people . when to counter 54 . then there's one sista . was shocked to see me ? in my mind , if my urine and blood test is neqative , i would have to stay in tan tock seng hospital . fuhhlermak , gerek ape ?
nntie ada oranq lehh datanq tenqok aku kan ? if there's is ? hahhaa , k never mind if dun have too . atleast , i can stay and be treated like a boss .. lyinq down the bed . with nurses and doctor , treatinq me .. so i waited for abt 10-20 min . to take my blood test . then i heard a girl . who seems like a same age as me ?
told the doc , this was her first time takinq blood test . so she is afraid . i was there , like qonna laugh . the doctor of mine , injected my left hands . where it had to inject . then i walk out of the room . showinq off .
cause , i didnt feel anythinq . although , it felt hurt when i stretch my hand .. hahahaha . 'nak tunjuk macho tapi muka cramp' .. okae then had to wait for doc num . i was standinq , uncle and auntie who saw me . then asked me to seat .  as i was hack care then i sat . cause too tired already mahh.. waited for my num , i was supposed to be room 40-41 . but room 39 called me . i was like damn shock , as the doc . whye my room chanqed . then the doc , like wanted to scold me . i kept quiet and smile . i was like flirtinq with her . cause , she asked me to breathe in and out . is like holdinq hand . cause my white blood cell was really low that time . so she had to hold my hand to check i could still breathe . luckily , i was stronq and then 'tahan' till i took my medicine home . went to fairprice , bought two mineral water and apple season tea(small bottle) ..
when home to nenek house and took the medicine . after eatinq nasi lemak at clementi interchnqd . the nasi lemak was damn power . at night , eat two bbq chicken . left another two for tomorrow but was qone .
i know nenek threw it away :,(

hey its me , fyko barney

hey , its me fiiqo barney ..
sorry people for not updatinq my blog . been busy workinq and doinq sum stuff ..
hahahah cool mahh .. im a guy who did not , like to giveup .. that time i was sick when im workinq .
but i still continue . jyeah . when alot of time to polyclinic at clementi . wasnt qettinq recovered . but instead , more sickness happened to me ? fuck life . but what to do . i did not plan to be sick what . the first time went to the doctor . it was a normal sick .

hello !!

hello peeps ! ny bukan Fyko ny Aylaa . hahaha ~ bini dhea lah . xP
haha ! so yeah , si gemok ny malas nk update blog dhea .
Ny untok dhea bukan kwng lh . LOL ! kaeyh , dh , bye !! <3

i want ue

BHY , i promise to be with ue .
once ai said , i want eu . means , ii want eu alone la . dun ever leave me pls .
ii cant a second see ur face . ii love havinq ue by my side . ii understand ue .
but people around know me well . we are fated to be toqether bhy . trust me .
every sinqle daes , ai pray for eu . to come and said . ilysm aqaen .
althouqh , i dun owned the real parents . ai love eu . since the dae , ai knew eu .
ue make my daes qo hiqh . idc how eu look or what ur characters is .. ii just love ue and the person u r .
ii hope eu too can see me lovinq ue ..
hurtinq me . so be it . as lonq as ii can be with ue syq ..

sway sia

haish . todae is my sway dae . plan to pump my bicycle .
when to teban . to buy ice kacanq . the shop closed . then told my sis .
i want to qo and pump my bicycle . but idk la . cycle to pandan loop fuel station . then tried to pump .
my front tire . lose all its air . left with arnd 2 % . an uncle and one bro . tried to help . but couldnt also .
all indian quy . then ii qave up . wanted to qo back home . then one of the man said , 'adek , there is a nearby bicycle shop.' ai asked , is it far . how to walk . he said , west coast onie . carried my bicycle to the shop . and it was closed . then had to walk home while pushinq my bicycle to pandan qarden . luckily not teban qarden . if not , i dun want sia . rather throw that bicycle and steal a new one . pushinq my bicycle until pandan . was tired but didnt qiveup la . cause , im used to walkinq a far distance . in my mind , wanted to beat up banqla if they cycle near me la . or make an excuses then steal their bicycle . as the place was quite dark and quite . hahah , but dun want la . hehe ..
around 1009 like that reach pandan . walk around . tried to steal a new bicycle .
then like wth .. chanqed my mind . i dun want la . iqnored

fuckinq miss her

couldnt sleep well .. w/o her beinq my side everydae . w/o her sms .. haish . kept thinkinq wad to do . to qet her with me everydae .. haish , think this sickness was pass down by her la . cause , that time she was sick . then i huqqie her and ii tried to make herself cool la . but idw to qo doctor ..
heheh .. my fwens told me to . but , its all depend on me now . haish , smokinq - smokinq is bad for your health . nie last smokinq 'qudanq qaram ' then ai wanna stop . if my fwens qive me then ai will take a little onie la .

hate smokers ..
love life ...
forever ,
fiiqo jack-jack

me . me . me .

hahah , lonq time didnt update ..
so damn sick la .. hahah , must learn to keep myself fit and stress la ..
i need to find work sia . to support my own expenses .. hahah , cool kan .. fiiqo kuai kuai is back ..
known as jackjack .. alot of people love qivinq me nickname lain2 sakk .. cause , they say i'm sick wad ..
hahahah .. sowie la . tulis shortform cause , ai hate la .. now pon masih sakit niek . so yeah .. havinq sickness like . demam , flu and runninq nose .. sorethroat ..

rambot da laen ?!!

before reportinq the next day , on monday 14 march 2011 .. qot colored hair .. so when to the barber shop .. to get my hair done .. hahah , not wantinq to make style . ai shaved all botak .. for me , havinq style is nothinq .. cause , ii am not so bossy .. cause hair , can grow back .. buht my hair colored , maeb after ns then can colored back . maeb blonde or qold .. more to blushy colored mixed !?

cannot sleep

waking up so damn early , cause cannot sleep .. open my eyes then to see whether she would be there . buht she wasnt. had a nightmare abt her .. wantinq to let me off . buht ai tried to prevent her , she fade away .. oh ALLAH , dont yu separate us away .. cause ai just cant stop thinking of her ... every sinqle minit a seconds .. she is mine others half .. if she isnt with me , ai would die .. ALLAH , ai will try to chanqe my life for her .. ALLAH , dont yu cared and wanna see me happie ?
ai hope when ai went to NS , she would not flirt around and leave me all alone . cause , she's the only one .. in my heart .. tearinq come-inq slow down now , as ai think of her ,,.. cant forget what we had done and what we are doinq .. try-inq not erase the moments of sadness and happiness with her .. that GIRLS !!! THAT GIRLS , named AYLAA !!

past and present she is the only one that ai want ...
please ai hope , my wish would come true ,
like what ai said ...
tiada ada yanq lain dapat memisahkan kita ..
tuhan telah menemui jodoh kita ...
jikau pintar perpisahan .. tiada laqy patah perkataan inqin ku lafazkan ..
hanya kau dapat melihat tanqisan airmataku !!
that date 29 sept 10 !

semua salah aku ~?

kimak , smue salah aku ape ? tnye baik-baik pon tknk jawab urh ..?
haus lah haus .. aby nak cakap aku yanq salah ? bila part kaw ..  tak dengar aku cakap alek lah ...
kau suro aku berubah .. skq peranqai sape plak mepek niey ... aku mnq syqkan kau .. tapi kalo kaw nak jual mahal .. mampos ahh whye ? since kau pon da kata , ramai laki is afert-ing yu kan ?! aku jek kan orq selalu tnqk mcm criminal kan ?! mcm sial uhk .. , bila aku berubah , orq nak ada jek gado qn aku .. korq mane tawu , betapa sakit nye , ddk dlm sorng2 ... makan minum da mcm air kencing and taik siak .. makan pon tk kenyanq .. hmm , pape lahh eyk ? biar lahh aku ddk and hidup sowang sendiri .. mak aku da mcm sial , nak step marah-marah aku ,.. cakap PADAN muka Kaw kan ? niey urh mak sial ?
kalo tknk tlq kaw nye pasal lahh .. kaw mnq bkn mak aku sebernya !!
aku budak chanqeable person lahh whye .. korq tk kacaw aku .. aku tkkn kacaw korq .. tapi nantie aku nak amik revenged pat bdk tyuhhh ... dulu yaya kan .. tjr pnya .. pql bdk pukul aku .. niek , ahboii small small turun !! 1989 !!

, BOO !! k , lol .

, aylaa here nht fiiqo !! heehs ^^ ferst thinq ferst i wanna sae sorry to my precious baby fer postinq this without your permission .. sorry bhy !! Haahs :D
, i will always be there fer you no matter what ever happens ..
i love you with all my heart . Oh jyeaa ! this is fer you !! hehe ^^ aqain , sorrye .

 

CUTE KARNHH !! K , LOL !

blanks (random)

...............................................boring.........................fuck off..............missing yu..........................................................cherishing the moments................................making her mine..............................having fun...........................cnt stop forgetting yu................................................miss the time when i'm with yu.................. don't wanna lose yhu....................................letting our my feelinqs................................cant stay away from yu...................................... cause u're so damn unique................................................believe me..............
i love yu............................. onie yu cant let me rest in peace.......................................


fiiqo miss her ... (aylaa)

me cant forget her

she light my day , with her smile. she make me weak every time she cried .
ai can't forget abt her .. even a second though ... cause everything she does , is like a treasure for me ..
the happiest moments ai had is when i'm with her .. ai tried to forget her , buht ai see is her shadow scaring me ..
every time ai misses her .. onie she can make me to the longest and had a lovable day today .. ^^

hurt! hurt! hurt!

iim just hurt by my ex ,, yes ii still love hym ,, hys attched ,, so doo ii ,, but whye m ii hurt 2 c hys attched with someone else ? hmm ,, last tyme he cn accept me ,, bt now he slowly gonna fade away ,, haiish whad shud ii do without getting hurt by hym anymore ? haiish ,, ii really dnt noe wat to do ,, hmm yes hys my ex ,, bt hys my beluved ex ,, hmm well yes ii have 2 beluved ex ,, hys the 2nd 1 ,, hmm ,, ii just cnt ferget hym urh! its hard ,, haiish ,, ii really hope Allah gave me strength to go through all this challenge that He gave me ,, hmm my swet past tyme memory with hym is stll fresh in my mine ,, Ya Allah ,, pls guide me ,, whye must ii be like this ,, haiish ,, ii really dnt 1 2 suffer liike this all along ,, plss ,, haiish ,, whye must ii go through all this ,, *cryiing* ii hope hys happy urh *cryiing* ii just 1 the best fer hym ,, hope he will nort suffer lyke me although ii noe now he is ,, aku beserah kepade Yg Esa untok menentukn nye ,, hmmm ,,,really in a heart paiin now ,, ii tried 2 cheer up bt ii cnt ,, hmm ,, someone plss make me cheer up ,, haiish ,, bt idk whye no matter hw hard yuq try 2 cheer me up i'l nort cheer up ,, ii may be smiling bt deep inside iim damn hurt n sad,, haiish ,, how ii hope everything will end now,, haiish,, 

~FyFy c3p3t~